Bon Iver is for true love

Sometimes I listen to bands that have garnered critical acclaim, and I don’t get it. I can “appreciate” it. It sounds good, but it doesn’t stir any emotion inside of me. I know there is something I’m missing, some experience I never had or feeling I haven’t felt in a long time, something that makes you “get it”. 

I felt this way when I first heard Bon Iver. Then, about 6 months ago, I fell in love. In the past, I wanted to love someone so badly, to say things to them about what I felt and really mean them, but I never could. The feelings just were never there.

This time, it was different. I felt the most pure, sincere, heartbreakingly real love I’ve ever felt. And in an instant, it left me.

I was the luckiest girl in the world…and then I was crushed like an innocent caterpillar under your shoe. My overwhelming happiness just evaporated into thin air. “Devastated” is understatement.

What followed was a pain I could never even imagine. This was a debilitating pain that made me physically ill every day.

All of a sudden, Bon Iver made sense. Every painful melody spoke to me in a way it never had. And there I was, in the middle of a crowded music festival, bawling my eyes out. my, my, my.

So there you have it; Bon Iver is for true love. 

i love you too, but we’ve got bills to pay

today I went to jered’s bday party at the lafayette. Mike and I behaved civally toward one another. We all went to pokez: me and the cool kids that I find rather boring and juvenile. Nobody tagged me in the cool kids facebook check in or invited me to the cold cave show tonight at the casbah. These people are not my friends. it wasn’t so bad though. It was certainly better than my last 2 experiences at pokez.

I thought things were getting a little heavy with matt, but somehow I’m depressed again. I can’t take care of someone else’s shit right now. I guess I don’t need sex and affection as much as I need stimulating conversation and emotional support. Jennifer is right; nothing makes me happy.

more tony kelly

more tony kelly

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i met tony kelly this weekend. he was rad and a blast to party with

i met tony kelly this weekend. he was rad and a blast to party with

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uhh

there is something wrong with me. I don’t freak out if I guy i’m dating tells me he used to be a meth addict, but i do freak out if he tells me he wants to have a baby within 3 years.

it also means I’m going to call this adorable babe tomorrow so we can make out and cuddle and he can make me feel better. <3

it also means I’m going to call this adorable babe tomorrow so we can make out and cuddle and he can make me feel better. <3

today is the fucking worst day ever. that means i&#8217;m going to watch pride and prejudice and drink wine and try to go to bed without crying and eating a lot of carbs.

today is the fucking worst day ever. that means i’m going to watch pride and prejudice and drink wine and try to go to bed without crying and eating a lot of carbs.

Damn

He’s the one. I wish he knew